52 Responses to “I Am Old”


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  1. Beautiful. I very much appreciate this visit from your inner crone. Her wisdom is timeless and true, and not to be taken lightly.

  2. Wisdom and beauty. We always rush our lives instead of standing still to enjoy it. I love this . This made me think of my mom. Your inner self is having the same conversations I have with myself on some days. Getting older and wiser. At least I hope :)

  3. Hi Katie,

    The wisdom of age and experience passed down to the potential of youth… I love the idea!

    “I’ve lived your life already and I know what matters most at the end.”

    And, no doubt, those things which occupy and vex us right now – won’t be amongst those things that really mattered that much after all when we look back.

  4. This is a fantastic post! Loaded with wisdom. It breaks my heart to think back on all the moments I rushed through as a youth ~ but this is the way of the world. I can’t go back, but I can learn to slow down NOW and live in each beautiful and glorious moment. Thank you so much for reminding me of SO MUCH :)

  5. Katie – You’re writing always touches a cord with me, but this one absolutely took my breath away. Beautiful and moving, inspiring and truthful. So much of my life has been spent chasing after something, rushing to get somewhere, or trying to be someone I thought I should be.

    It’s nice to slow down and be reminded that this isn’t a race to the end.

    Thank you so much for sharing this.


  6. Wow Katie, I really liked that.

  7. Lizzy

    Beautiful ! absolutely beautiful!
    I especially liked…
    Take hold of it not by grabbing up all you can, but by giving away all you can. Give away kindness, give away hugs, give away your time, give away food, give away money, give away want, give away love
    Give it all away and just see what happens

  8. Katie, I thought maybe this was a great grandmother or an aunt. And now I see what you have done. Incredibly moving. Chilling. Touching and so loving. Thank you for giving me something to read that I will remember forever.
    They say blog posts don’t change you forever. I have to disagree. Beautiful.
    Hope you are doing super well. I have a feeling you are. Spring is almost here. A new beginning all over again. Let’s make it the best one yet.

  9. Katie,
    I am really connecting to this post. I feel you might have read my mind a bit here as I’ve been contemplating similar questions:

    What are we trying to accomplish, really?
    Are we heading in the right direction?
    How much time away from the real joy of living have we handed over to the “screen?”

    As I take back my life and begin to move along the “right” path again your words stand out as a sign-post that I am moving in the right direction.

    Thank you dear friend!

  10. Shirley

    No matter the subject, this is the best blog I ever read. It deeply resonated
    with me. You go girl!!!

  11. Thank you for this beautifully written and thought provoking piece.

  12. alex

    beautifully written – reminded me of a poem with the way it flowed. I think I need to write myself a letter from the future as well, to stop worrying and do more meaningful things. also, this post made me miss you! come home soon xo

  13. I think I’m older than most of those who have left comments so far, though not as old as the picture in this post! But, you have nailed the importance of relishing each moment of each day.

    It is an absolute fact that time speeds up as you get older. As someone in his early 60’s, I swear that weeks are only two days long and years have lost several months along the way. I can’t slow down the passage of time and I can’t get back all the days I wasted in the past. All I can do now is grab every opportunity to pack a day with love, learning, and fun.

  14. oh katie, this was absolutely beautiful! at first i thought this was your grandmother speaking at first, but this was much more powerful. i love how you say that you still feel like a young woman. we do that don’t we?

    thank you for this wonderful reminder that we only have this one life to live, make the most of it now, don’t wait.

  15. I love this Katie. What an empowering and self-fulfilling gift to give ourselves.


  16. I smiled the whole way through this post. “Your days of old will come sooner than you’ll ever believe possible” & “I know what matters most at the end” – both haunting lines that should resonate within us all. Realizing these thoughts will put a whole new perspective as we move forward and I for one do not want to waste one single minute. Thank you dear Katie!

  17. Lovely! It is so comforting to know that we will one day be this wise woman, looking back feeling so full of life. It inspires me to be the best I can be now, so that I will have a life time of wonderful experiences and heart advice to pass along…

  18. Wendy

    Beautiful post.

  19. Hi Katie, Such a great way of projecting us all into the future to highlight that the freedoms that we have now, and so often waste in silly ways, cannot be taken for granted. A reminder to be grateful for all the wonders of life, and the opportunities that we have NOW in this moment for happiness and joy.Thanks for an inspirational read, as always, Katie

  20. Katie,

    I’m not sure where I heard or read this advice, but it was to live and view life as though you are already an old woman swinging on your front porch. When you are worried about something or have a decision to make, see it through her eyes and she will let you know what is truly important, whether it will even matter to her. Your lovely post reminded of this advice.

    Beautifully written, as always! :)

  21. Very lovely post and so very true. A great perspective from which to view oneself now, and I salute your courage. I can feel resistance to imagining myself so old but that, I think, is because it’s not too far away and will be here all too soon. But perhaps I’ll take heart from your example and give it a go.

  22. Absolutely beautiful and emotional letter. Thank you so much for sharing this with your readers and for putting things into perspective for our young selves.

  23. Kelly

    This sounds like something my grandmother would have said, and it is beautiful! This is one of your best posts so far, and I am forwarding it to my 13 year old daughter, who definetely needs to hear it! Thanks.

  24. I really liked this post Katie. I envisioned it so well….Even got goosebumps as I read it. The concept of enjoying every moment is essential – because every moment is gone. I used to be hard core about completing tasks, goals, and deadlines. While I believe goals are important, I believe TODAY, this minute, is more important. So I clear away the crap and let myself love, be free, and do what I’m supposed to do, while being me.

  25. Hi Katie!
    What a cool idea. I never would have thought of doing something like this. It’s a great way to change our perspecives around and start paying attention to what is really important! Thanks Katie!

  26. What a beautiful thought dear Katie. My old self very much connected with a thought of your old self, and that is the desire to be touched. Physical (consented) touch is so so so very important to me. I fear that no one will want to touch me when I’m old, or won’t want me to touch them. This thought breaks my heart. It makes me want to hold the hand warmly and sincerely of every older woman I encounter.

    Incredibly touching.

  27. thank you again for a very inspiring post. How insightful to write yourself a letter from your older self. I will do this very thing. It reminds me of one more thing to be grateful for. Our ability to learn from ourselves even if in our imagination.

  28. Hmmm I never tried that before, but it sounds interesting. I often do similar exercises which help me listen to my inner voice, rather than to what other people want me to do, or what society thinks is the best way to live my life, but your exercise sounds fun.

  29. This is beautiful. Thanks for the reminders.

  30. Thank you all for your lovely comments. I think this is only the second time I won’t be replying to each of you individually (which I love doing, by the way). But I’m just back from holiday, a little jet-lagged and have a lot of work to catch up on so I hope you’ll forgive me this time.

    It is amazing the difference a four hour flight can make. My view has changed from one of looking out over the shimmering emerald Jamaican ocean to that of gazing out my window to an incredibly thick, beautiful snowfall cascading across my backyard. No matter the season or place, I am grateful for all the views, all the perspectives, from my young self, my old self and from you. Thank you many times over my dear readers and friends.


  31. Katie, I loved this post.

    I have done a similar spoken exercise with partners and found it so beneficial, but I much prefer the idea of writing a letter and adding it to my journal so I can look back on it in the future.

    Welcome home.

  32. Gratitude, being in the moment, love. What a creative way to inspire, Katie! Once again, you’ve given me and so many others a reason to connect on the internet and fall in love with your words all over again.

  33. Katie, your writing is simply beautiful.

  34. Your writing is beautiful, Katie. Insightful, graceful and inspiring. Thank you.

  35. This is sweet Katie. I think my older self would say – slow down, savor, and focus.

    Hope you had a great holiday :)

  36. Katie,

    Love this:
    My flesh is weak, but my soul is strong. I am just like you. I am worthy, weary, stiff and I am not ready to be ignored, dismissed, pitied or forgotten.

    Every single older adult feels this way to some extent. Beautiful. I also love what Adrienne says in her comment.

  37. Lady Guru, how are you so poetic and brilliant?

    There is so much in life that we love, desire and aspire to – and having that deep zest often means we don’t take the deep level of self-care that is needed. This letter from older self is incredibly brilliant. It reminds me that we “know” what’s best for self, but often don’t listen and follow it consistently. We can be our own best guidance and we need to take these moments to put it in perspective and stop long enough listen.

    I hope one day you will put a collection of your earth shattering posts (like this one) together in one fan-freaken-tastic collection.

  38. That was very good Katie. My first instinct was I’ve got to find that old woman’s blogsite. My take on insights/epiphanies is that they have little value unless they are actionable (i.e. change your patterns of behavior). I have read way too many self help books searching for the insight allows success via paradigm shift vs risk taking, hard work, stepping out of one’s comfort zone etc. If there is purpose to existence I think it might be realizing one’s potential.

  39. Katie,

    You always manage to make me “feel” so much with your posts. You’re truly gifted. I’m gonna share something real quick: My father was much older than usual when he had me (everyone thought he was my grandfather when I was in grade school). He passed away in 2009 at 89 years old. For most of my life his skin was wrinkled, his vision so-so, his knees arthritic, and his teeth replaced.

    And he had the most spectacular life of anyone I know. Somehow he packed in 5 lifetimes into his 89 years. Even in his late 70’s he was traveling to Russia and teaching poetry to students there. A real spitfire.

    Life is short even when it’s long and we gotta pack all the best stuff into our lives while we’re here. Thank you for this post. It put a huge smile on my face.

  40. Yes, yes, yes! I like how you write ” I still want to be beautiful, respected, and listened to. I feel like I’m twenty years old inside. Okay, maybe thirty.” Reminds me of looking in the mirror and thinking who is that? and knowing that it is me in there. Here’s a great verse from John Prine’s Hello In There:

    So if you’re walking down the street sometime
    And spot some hollow ancient eyes,
    Please don’t just pass ‘em by and stare
    As if you didn’t care, say, “Hello in there, hello.”

    In Katie’s honor I challenge everyone reading this to give a few moments today to connect with an older person and at least say “Hello.”

    Thanks Katie for the post.

  41. Hello dear Katie,

    What a fabulous way to reflect on impermanence and get your priorities straight. And so beautifully written. My inner crone is a lot like yours. :)

  42. Hi Katie. Excellent post. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about what it means to be old as I’ve been watching my mother struggle through the last years of her life and listening to what she is saying. On the other of the spectrum I have daughters, and their look in life is something different again. Perspective is always good, no matter what.

    Most important, at any age, is to live in the moment and enjoy and value the present.

  43. I’d come to give blessing with you one this subject. Which is not something I typically do! I really like reading a post that will make people think. Also, thanks for allowing me to comment!

  44. It’s beautiful, Katie. I feel like I have been away from your words for way too long during my unplugged days in the states. I am so happy you had some days away for a holiday. Your wisdom and sweetness always shines through in your beautifully written posts. While I was in the states, I kept my younger self close at hand to warn me and protect me when things felt strange or unsafe. I love the idea of listening to my older self (I only have to listen to what I say to my best friends to find traces of her).

  45. Very eloquent, Katie. I’m only 26 but I’ve been recently thinking about how when you’re growing up, you don’t realize you will be the same person as you are today when you grow old. That the person you will be when 70 will look, feel, and sound like a different person. This puts perspective on how life is one continuous road of minutes blending into days blending into years, and that process should be celebrated!

  46. I have, many times in my life, looked back on photos of myself 10 years ago, marveling at how good I looked ‘back then.’ I have taken to reminding myself that 10 years from now I will be looking at pictures of me now, thinking this same thing, and so rather then enjoying it then, I am trying to remember to do it now.

  47. So sensitive poem.I admize your thought

  48. This is beautiful, Katie. We do fear a lot of things at times, including getting old. The soul doesn’t get old however, we just forget how to be young and how to seize everything that’s worth living for ;)

  49. Love your beautiful and comforting letter from your old self to your self now. I recognize the exercise from The Artist’s Way. You are right, we need to slow down and truly live right here, right now.

  50. Wow. Your words almost brought me to tears.

    I took two very important messages from this post. First, we must learn to slow down, live in the moment and appreciate all that we see around us. Second, we cannot continue to ignore the older generation. There is so much wisdom within them. We must appreciate them and all the contributions they have made and continue to make.

    Thank you.